At Crossroad

Here or there or...? I am in the twilight of my life journey.
Many of us, I believe, grow sentiments at particular periods of life. A prime exemplification of my argument is: we are handed over to fear in facing multiple routes, however feeble and ambiguous the sense would be.
Graduation is approaching, though at a slower pace than I have conceived. I don't have any premonition this time firmly enough to guide my course selection. This is what makes me at loss. Uncertainty easily sinks me into dejection, especially when a scenario like this is blended with ice-glazed streets and slushy pavement. To shrug off personal predisposition in making a choice is not easy; neither is to travel against what the society desires.
I was reading Jung today and ran into the following paragraph, which frames the polemics of humanity in a Freudian scheme:
"It is just man's turning away from instinct - his opposing himself to instinct - that creates consciousness. Instinct is nature and seeks to perpetuate nature, whereas consciousness can only seek culture or its denial."
Not sure how much faith I shall place in such an overarching statement, yet it seems true that instincts and culture are dragging me toward different directions. When I achieved something projected for long, I lost taste for it. Pre-marriage-phobia? Similar enough. 2008 in retrospection was a blissful year. But, I crave for something I could be excited about. After all, I claim authorship of my life.